12 Jul I’m Headed to BlogFest!
I have some fun news for everyone! I’m so excited to announce that I have been invited to attend BlogFest, one of the largest conventions for Fitness and Wellness bloggers in the world! That’s right, I’m headed to BlogFest! Tomorrow morning I will board a flight and head to Los Angeles, California where I will meet up with hundreds of the top fitness bloggers in the world! We’ll get to try out some of the newest technology in fitness, workout together in cool, different ways and meet with the industry’s leading brands and learn from them. I’ll be staying with and exploring LA with a few of my fellow Dallas Fitness Ambassadors and meeting so many new people. Feel free to follow us along on snapchat and Instagram! It should be SO much fun! I can’t wait!
I’m also super overwhelmed. You see, I feel like this trip just… snuck up on me. I have this habit of compartmentalizing priorities based on proximity… What I mean by that is that if I can see the event at the end of the tunnel, It’s on my radar and I start planning for it… normal, right?
The thing with BlogFest is that I was invited to attend, accepted my invitation, made my travel and arrangement plans and confirmed everything in January. 7 months ago. Subconsciously I put this HUGE event in the back of my mind because it was so far away, I couldn’t see it at the end of the tunnel… Well, folks… the end of the tunnel is here and I must have been sleeping on the train because OMG I’M FEELING SO UNPREPARED!!!! I’M HEADED TO BLOGFEST AND IT’S TOMORROW!!!!!
Okay.. reality check. And the reality is I’m a little nuts.
I’m prepared. I’ve got my outfits ready. I’m packed. I’ve got my business cards, media kits, iPad, note-taking materials and print-outs ready to go. I’ve read posts on what to expect and I’ve even been in a group message with the girls I’m staying with for months now. I’m ready. The reality is that my mind tells me I’m not prepared and to step on the gas because it’s so much easier to tell myself to keep planning and prepping as a means to control the real emotion behind BlogFest for me… I’m a bit scared. Intimidated, really.
The self-doubt is creeping in, y’all. The thought that my blog isn’t good enough to be there… I’m really not fit enough to be there… I mean I only really work out a few times a week! I’m sure the girls there will be FAR more fitness-oriented and run blogs/businesses that are FAR more ahead of mine! These thoughts come creeping in and I start to think that I’m just not worthy of being there… and what if they all see through me? And what if I get my butt handed to me in these workouts? Maybe I shouldn’t go…
Then I stop and breathe for a minute and think…. Those thoughts need to stop. NOW. I’m right, I’m not prepared to go and the truth is, I’ll never be prepared to go until I realize that I’m worthy of being there and I quit thinking those thoughts that ONLY bring me down.
I’d like to think I’m a confident gal. I AM a confident gal. I’m probably TOO confident at times [Hello there, lack-of-a-sense-of-public-shame!]. I’m self-assured and proud of who I am, BUT I can’t deny that I can still feel intimidated and very afraid of failure. I need to take those emotions and turn them into that drive that leads me to success. I’ve been afraid before, but usually that thing I’m fearful of ends up not being all that scary after all.
When I started the blog I was afraid… super afraid. This whole process has ripped me from my comfort zone and placed me in the middle of a platform that requires a significant amount of gusto to stand on. It takes a lot of courage to post all your junk on the internet. It takes a lot of courage to do a 60 day challenge publicly so others could potentially see you fail. It takes a HUGE amount of courage to share things that make you vulnerable.
I mean, shoot, in all honesty, it takes a lot of courage to stand awkwardly in a crowd of people and ask someone to take 37428490 photos of JUST YOU looking in all different directions, but not really moving your stance or your body… people look at you weird as you stand in front of a white wall and smile feebly at your half-empty coffee cup while your sweet husband just snaps away… So, yeah, I know I have it in me.
I also need to remember that I never started this blog to be someone I am not. I started it to be genuine and sincere and to share what I’ve learned so far in life! I started it to hold myself accountable to pursuing my best life, pursuing love, faith, health and family. I started this blog to make a difference and to use my thoughts and my words to potentially inspire others. I never started this blog to be the “Hot New Blogger” or to be recognized or famous… I need to remember that I can be brave and that bravery can change my life and then I can use this moment to inspire others to be brave too.
So… tomorrow I board a plane for a weekend I’m honored and excited to attend. I’m headed to BlogFest. I have no idea what to expect, but I know that if I focus on building relationships, growing in my knowledge of health, taking this time to grow as an individual and grow my blog and taking a moment to rest so I can be a better wife/mom when I get home along the way, it probably won’t be that intimidating to me. I bet I’ll have a lot of fun!
Deep breath. Big smile. You got this, girl!
God didn’t give us a spirit of timidity, but one of power, love and discipline.”–2 Timothy 1:7
Thanks for listening to my pep-talk to myself. If you made it this far, please let me know… that was a long ramble of craziness and I want to send you a cookie or something for surviving this post…
So I won’t send you a cookie. I’ll just probably tell you I think you’re awesome.
Next time we meet, I’ll be in LA!! I’M HEADED TO BLOGFEST!!! YYYYEEEEAAAHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!