Momspiration Monday // Becki’s Story

Momspiration Monday // Becki’s Story

I believe that our words and stories hold power and strength, so here’s mine…

A few months back I suffered with a medical issue that lasted over a month. I didn’t share it with everyone because I thought it was weird to say “I’m in pain but I don’t know what’s wrong”. Having family and friends that suffer with far more serious illnesses, my story sounded trivial in comparison but as time progressed I came to realize it was much more than that…

On February 13, 2017, I was in my kitchen preparing dinner with my youngest son. Suddenly I felt a sharp pain in my head, I was nauseated, seeing stars and felt dizzy. I could see the concern in my sons eyes as he asked me to rest on the sofa while he finished cooking dinner. As I lay there, trying to fight back tears, I said I was OK but I wasn’t… A severe headache along with other symptoms continued non-stop for the next seven weeks. My life felt as if it had stopped and after countless doctor & specialists appointments, CT scans, three MRI’s, a lumbar puncture, four rounds of bloodwork, a horrible visit to the ER, and tons of different meds, the pain persisted. I had no history of headaches, my tests were all clear and we had no answers. Both of lmy doctors and several radiologists were at a loss. I’m a “believer” and I always have been but sadly I was losing hope and I felt as if my faith was being tested. The emotional distress began to take a toll on my spirit. I believe in the power of positive thinking so that was not cool… That evening, in the middle of my kitchen, I was given a wake-up call. My body was talking and I needed to listen. After all, this story isn’t about the headache, its about the way I was going through life, pushing as hard as I could, not taking time to enjoy the world around me. Getting caught up with always being too busy… As Moms, we tend to do for everyone else first and we often fall short where our needs are concerned.

Fast forward to today, I’m trying to approach life differently. As challenging as it may be, I’m readjusting and understanding my limits. I’m certain that in every challenge is a lesson and through this experience, in the midst of trying circumstances, I continued to learn… I’m celebrating the journey by living each day as if it were my last, making memories with my sweet family, taking time for myself and learning to rest and relax. I resolve to continue to lead a positive life in everything I do, to be completely present and to truly enjoy the world as God intended. We never know what’s around the corner… I’ve learned many things from this experience but most of all I’ve been reminded of the undying support of my loved ones; I’m so grateful for the love everyone gave so freely. I have a beautiful family, friends that I will always consider family, generous and caring coworkers, a very loving and sweet husband and three amazing kids that show me every day how much I mean to them. They all lifted me up…

After 48 long days of waking up and going to bed with an excruciating headache my answer and healing finally came through a wonderful doctor and physical therapist. To God goes the glory! You see, I’ve always believed that through God, doctors are given special skills to deal with our illness and save us from pain.
My mind went so many places during this uncertain time and I was reminded that life is so fragile. My life is far from perfect and I still struggle to maintain balance but I’m eager to take whatever steps necessary to allow my faith to be greater than my fear, to fight for a meaningful life and give back whenever and as much as I can… I challenge you to do the same!

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  • Becki Flores
    Posted at 14:50h, 30 May

    I am so honored to be be featured on “Momspiration Monday” on “The H is For” website this week!! Chandler is amazing, she was born and raised in Austin, just like me! Her passion and enthusiasm for life motivates me. Thank you Chandler for inspiring me and for allowing me to share my story…

    • [email protected]
      Posted at 14:56h, 30 May

      I love that you shared your story! It’s on honor to have you!

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