20 Feb Momspiration Monday // Kendel’s Story
Motherhood: wow. What an amazing thing it is!
My journey to motherhood was a very blessed and thankfully easy one. After being married for a little over a year, my husband and I decided it was time to have a baby.
After about 3 months, on July 30, 2015, my best friend Chandler sent me a random text that said “OMG you’re pregnant!” I simply laughed and said no way it’s too early to tell. She told me that she had a feeling.
Well, the next morning I couldn’t stop thinking about that text, so I took a pregnancy test even though I wasn’t late yet. I remember being so anxious and trying to make myself wait 5 minutes. Well, that didn’t happen. I literally stared at the test for 2 minutes….nothing. Not even a faint line. My heart sank and I felt defeated.
I went to the kitchen to clean some things up, then came back into the bathroom to get dressed for the day. I literally screamed as I saw those two little pink lines.
The next 3 hours of my life waiting for my husband to get home were the longest I have ever had to wait. But, it was completely worth it to get to see the expression on his face!
Honestly, my pregnancy was easy and I loved it. I know that is not the case for a lot of women, and I am so extremely thankful for it!
You spend your life thinking about those monumental moments and how they will be, but I never imagined how truly amazing those moments would actually be: seeing that little peanut on an ultrasound for the first time, hearing her heartbeat for the first time, feeling her kick for the first time, finding out she was a girl, and finally the realization that I would meet her sooner rather than later. In those moments all I could do was pray and thank the Lord for the amazing blessing he had given me.
My goal for my entire pregnancy was to have as natural of a pregnancy and birth as possible, with the ultimate goal of having an unmedicated birth. But, as I have learned time and time again, the Lord often reminds me that I cannot be in complete control of everything! His will is what is best, and I constantly have to remind myself of that.
Those last two weeks, wow, were those long! I was due on April 4, 2016. I did EVERYTHING possible to try to get labor going, and I mean everything. I constantly had Braxton Hicks, but that’s about it. I even taught my sweet little class of first graders up until the day before I gave birth, and even that wouldn’t coax her out.
The absolute last thing I wanted was an induction, but my doctor said I could not wait any longer. I was induced on April 19th, 2016, and our sweet little Claire Kathryn Davis was born at 5:45 p.m. My stubbornness finally paid off in life because I was still able to deliver without pain meds! Of course, my doula, husband and amazing nurse also had a huge part in getting me through that. Let me tell you, pitocin is the devil!
The instant she was out, all of the pain was gone completely once I laid my eyes on her. She was put on my chest immediately, and the feeling I had was an indescribable joy and love.
Since then, life has been crazy, fun, happy, exhausting, stressful…you name it! One of the greatest lessons I have learned being a mother is getting to get just a glimpse of how much our Savior loves us. It is truly amazing to think about!
The hardest day so far for me as a mother was dropping Claire off at daycare for the first time when I went back to teach school this Fall. Talk about guilt. I was sick to my stomach and crying all night the night before. Would she think I abandoned her? How can someone possibly take care of her as well as I do? Will she cry? Will they know why she is crying? The questions in my head were endless. But, she was fine, of course, and that social little butterfly loves going to her class.
Another challenge that I have had to face as a full-time working mother is the guilt of not being able to do it all, all the time. I want to have a clean house, look good, cook a big meal, make it to church every Sunday, do the laundry and so on, all while taking care of a dog, a 7 month old, my husband and teaching first grade…
NOT going to happen.
And you know what? That’s ok. Because at the end of the day, what matters most is that my baby and my husband know that I love them and will be there for them. The laughs, smiles, hugs and memories being made are all worth it. The house, laundry, to do list and other chores can wait, because you can never get time back with the ones you love.
There is a quote that my husband’s grandmother shared with me after having Claire, and I think it is a great description of motherhood:
“Making the decision to have a child – it is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body.” -Elizabeth Stone
Born and raised as the 3rd of four girls in Dallas, TX, Kendel still resides there with her husband, Will, and daughter, Claire [11 months]. As a first grade teacher, she spends her days with those who have her heart, children. When she’s not at school or at home, you can find Kendel cheering on the Baylor Bears, listening to country music, out on the ranch with her family or eating Mexican food!
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